Day 12.

Day 12....Someone you miss

I miss Sittoo, my grandmother, my mom's mom....every single day. It's been nine years, and it doesn't get easier, you just kinda get used to her not being there, which sucks, for lack of better term. Sucks for many reasons, as the days go by, the sound of her voice gets softer and softer in the distance. Not only do I miss her, but most days, most holidays/family gatherings, I miss her presence. You never really do see how one person impacts a whole, until they are gone. How our family functioned with her around, and how we all got along, even if it was just to please her, we did it, and well now...more times than not, our family just seems a little more separated to me. 

I also am missing my brothers, my siblings, people who share, or are supposed to share a special bond in your life. currently they are not sharing in any of that, and it makes me sad and helpless. To sit back and watch the ones we love just not care anymore, not help themselves, wasting their lives away, or maybe not, but not including those who love them more than they could ever know. I miss the good ol' days all too often here and there. The days of stupid bickering with my brothers, but then them coming over and hanging out, eating dinner over, watching tv, visiting with me and Russell. The good ol' days when I'd ask Nick if my hair was curly in the back, he'd get mad at me for chewing loud, and then we would be laughing over some silly hallmark saying Dad would mumble at the kitchen table. And I know I'm not the only one who misses that and them.