Missy Monday

And a happy monday it is while I am here sitting in a sunny living room of her parent's place in south carolina, a minute from myrtle beach to our left and surf side beach to our right. A windy cold 50 degrees for the natives, but a slight heat wave for us northerners. :) 

Wake up when we wake up, card games and dominos with her parents, romantic ferris wheel ride, and an awesome seafood buffet yesterday/last night. Things could not be any better. 

Our first valentine's day came and went…or happy hallmark day of love as I have called it for years now, being a bitter single soul or just not truly happy in my relationships pre-Missy. 

She made me the most thoughtful gift… the alphabet of reasons I love Lianne. :) :) :) :) :)

As I made her a framed scrapbook page of our journey thus far which included a picture on our first date and a picture of us on our engagement night. It's just an amazing story that the both of us will never ever forget and we can not wait to tell our children about it someday!! The story of us and how we met (the second time around) and fell in love!!!!!

We are just both so fortunate to have found each other, found the love that we share and will continue to strengthen and share all our life together. It is just such a relief of a feeling to know you have finally found someone who makes life worth living! And I can tell in our parents that they are just so relieved and happy for the both of us. As my mom's cousin spoke of his children being both happy with their employment opportunities at this time. There was also a sigh of relief in his speech, that I can imagine both our parents have as we have found love and partnership!

We are both very grateful for our parents, their commitments to each other over years and years of marriage, and their blessings for our future and life together, whatever may happen, wherever life may take us, as long as we are together. I know we will have it all, as long as we are together. 

We are both very driven, determined, organized, and loving, so loving of others, and real people that I truly believe we were made for each other. She is perfect for me, and we truly were meant to meet again. 

Missy Monday's

I fall in love with you over and over every time I look at you, hear your voice, touch you and hold you. I truly do not know where I would be without you here with me. Life makes sense with you, more than I could have ever imagined. 

I stopped looking for someone like you years ago, realizing that maybe I just would be by myself or settle for someone less than I truly deserved. Because really, I was never so sure of what I was deserving of. You form habits, bad habits, ways of thinking, people's actions may just effect the way you think about yourself and your worth. The more you think these things, you tend to believe them and no matter how many people who love you, tell you the opposite, you focus on the negative. This makes sense in my head and I am trying my hardest to write it into words. All these people, these relationships you formed with people I thought I loved, took a toll on my heart, broke my heart a little more each time, over years and years. As you get older, years go by, your attending your friends' weddings, baby showers and so forth. All the while, hoping for your day, your turn. 

You are my turn. December 20th this year is my day, our day! I gave up looking for you because I didn't know you existed but even more so, I didn't believe I deserved you. There are a lot of things I don't like about my past, or maybe would have done differently, but not if that meant you and I wouldn't have met when we did and how we did. I am so in love with you, our story, our love for one another. I am learning a lot about myself, as well as rebuilding my self-esteem, self-worth and most importantly my self-love. I just want to spend every possible minute with you for the rest of my life. 

You have given me more love, patience, acceptance, and understanding than I ever ever have had or could imagine receiving. Yes it has been just months thus far, but when you know, you know. When it feels so right in your heart, you can't stop it. No one can stop it, this crazy love, this huge amount of love, it's unbreakable, unstoppable. :) 

I LOVE YOU BEBS!!!!!

I can't imagine my life without you, what I would be missing if I hadn't joined match four months ago today.