I DID IT!!!! week 13 and I did it!!!

I DID IT! I DID IT!!!! and I couldn't help but SMILE while continuing to walk on the treadmill, after I met my goal, what was supposed to be my goal to meet by the end of July, well I did it... I ran an entire mile, one whole mile...running!!!!!! I could not be more proud of myself... so what did I do? I kept walking for 39 more minutes, here and there on an incline of .5 and 1.0 incline at a pace of 3.4-3.5!!

so here's how it just kinda happened...I hadn't been to the gym in two days, no big deal, and since my crappy sleep on Wednesday night, I tried to sleep in a little this morning, if you call waking up on and off and then back to sleep til about 9:30 sleeping in...oh well...and I just kinda took my time this morning doing whatever, had breakfast cause I was starving even though I did have every intention to go to the gym, so then I dilly dallied some more, had to wait some time to digest breakfast.. ha. And there I went...changed into my gym clothes, took Russell for a small walk, and I was off...ugh traffic mid day. So I went the opposite way and took care of some things before/in case it started to rain, I went to the recycling center, where I also get a natural high from smashing the glass bottles into the big bins :) and I finally dropped off my big bag of clothes to one of those donation places....all the while, wondering how busy the gym would or wouldn't be since I had never been mid day before...and started to pep myself up...today's the day, I'm going to attempt to run 1 mile! attempt: An act of trying to achieve something, typically one that is unsuccessful or not certain to succeed.

So there I went... doing nothing different than any other day...I put my gym ipod mix on shuffle, and perfect running songs came on, set my stats in the treadmill, and started my warm up walk of .1 mile at a .5 incline... and after 3 minutes which it took me to complete that (that I later deducted from my time) I started running... I was off and ever so determined apparently to attempt at this running of an entire 1 mile!! first song...."move along" and that I was...moving...second song: "dog days are over," third song: "lose yourself" at this point, I can't believe I am still running... mid day too? where was all this energy coming from? the songs, it had to have been the songs!! forth song: "And I am telling you, I'm not going" which is kinda slow, so I decided to chance it and change the song while running... ahhh...fearing that the emergency stop didn't pull off the machine 'cause I would have been pissed... so keep on running, on to the next song: "hey soul sister" which couldn't have been a better ending song (thinking of you :) ) as I approached 1.1 miles at 16:40 seconds at 4.3 pace!!!! GO ME!!!!! I WAS ALL SMILES AND SWEAT!!! I AM NOT A RUNNER PEOPLE!!! THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING.... so I deducted my .1 mile at 3 minutes walking, finalizing my 1 mile run at 13 minutes 40 seconds.....oh and here's the kicker, remember how my three minute warm up was at a .5 incline... well I didn't realize I was running at a .5 incline (which I've never done) oh until about .7 miles into running the mile... HA! which at that point, I quickly turned off the incline... finishing the last .3 at a regular 4.3 pace, no incline.

13 minutes 40 seconds.... craziness!!! that's a long way from walking a dreaded mile for gym class in high school just under 25 minutes...walking the entire thing!! Ha, if they could see me now :)

I was/am so happy! This is a huge accomplishment, 13 weeks, early mornings, and tons of self motivation. I have a long way to go... but this is a great start! I am happy to say the gym is a part of my life, and it secretively makes me happy to go, no matter what time of day.

week 13. Happy Birthday Sittoo.

week 13, off to a slow start, (still managed to get 2 days in so far, and plan on going tomorrow morning and saturday morning) but that's because school has ended! YAY! and you have left for the summer. BOO! yes, there will be more visits than last, and skyping and phone calls, but we can both agree that it's just not the same. So my mom bought me some soft batch cookies (despite the gym thing) but if you don't ever allow yourself the "bad" things you'll just end up craving them even more, and yes I like my chocolate, but I am very proud of myself for continuing to eat the way I do, stock up my frig with fresh fruits and veggies and look forward to eating healthy foods. I get sort of a high when packing my lunch for work and seeing how many fruits and veggies are in there and hardly any processed foods. :) go me. :)

Anyways...the soft batch cookies were to cheer me up with you leaving yesterday and for Sittoo's birthday today. Sittoo: grandmother in arabic. 100% Lebanese. Taken too soon, just like the rest of the others....It's your birthday today, you would have been 82 years old...It's so hard to believe that August will be 7 years since you passed on. 7 years...I was 21 turning 22, and I am already 28 turning 29...and I miss you just as much as the first day you were no longer here with us. I love you.

So today is sort of a sad blah day, the rainy weather doesn't help it either....but I'm off to a friends house to hang out and drink my Big Pink House wine. The bottle looked cute, so I bought it a few weeks ago at the NH state liquor store...and I will add it to my collection of wine bottles for our house one day.

not much else to say except I'm missing a few people today...

here's to the summer, another one without you, but it's minor in the big scheme of things, right? right!

here's to budgeting, saving as much as I can this summer, getting all caught up with both of my scrapbooks, finishing reading The Pact, continue my blogging, kicking my but in the gym 4 times a week, and maybe even starting/continuing writing my book....

what are your summer goals?

damn alarms... you just weren't loud enough I guess.

ahhhh. It's 7:15, and friday, which means I shouldn't be just waking up because I still have school to go to (and by school, I mean work for those of you who don't know, I work at an elementary school as an ABA tech with children with autism) but I am completely EXHAUSTED!!! Thank goodness my progress reports have been passed in and it's just clean up time and packing up for summer school...and then, well and then who knows what school I will be working at. But more importantly let's get back to this morning...

I slept through both my alarms, my alarm to go to the gym, and then again to wake up incase I missed the gym one, and I could have taken Russell for a walk...well too late for that!! ahhh...is it the end of the year exhaustion, is it all these changes, is it knowing I will be spending lonelier evenings and mornings, so I want to make the most of them now... I AM EXHAUSTED.

Week 12 was not a good week for me at the gym, but I do have every intention to wake my ass up tomorrow morning or sunday morning and go, to make it at least 3 times this week!! But if I don't, then it is what it is, and I need to listen to my body which is completely sore and maybe just needs a friggin break! Like you said last night, I need to quit being so negative (I kinda was a little yesterday :( ) and go back and read all my blogs and realize how amazing I have been doing at the gym and with everything!! You're right, and that's why I love you.

So it is what it is, I'll take Russell for a long walk later tonight and there's always my exercise ball and arm weights here at home... I guess I needed the sleep...and probably could use a bit more, I don't remember ever feeling so tired, could it be, that I ran so low on energy... I just crashed? me? the one who can't sit still, who is still up and at'em thinking there is stuff to be done even if it is almost midnght... hahaa.

Happy Friday everyone. 2 1/2 more days 'til school is out and I have a week and a half before I see the workplace again!!

Enjoy!

Mr. treadmill and I

It's Thursday...and the days are numbered (until the last day of school as we all need a much deserved vacation even if it is only a week and a half before summer session starts), as well as maybe my stay at Beal, the school I currently work at...transfers suck just as much as change does, oh wait that is a change..being transfered. anywho... I'm trying not to think about it, and what better or healthier way than kicking the treadmill's ass this morning!!! I've been pushing myself since day one...a little further each day, recently increasing the amount of weights being lifted and setting mini goals as well as long term goals for the treadmill. By the end of the summer I hope to run the entire mile on the treadmill!! I can do this!! crazy!

This morning, all before 6:20am mind you...(2.2 miles and made it home before the lightening!) and the fact that I was wide awake before my alarm went off at 5:06am....that in itself is craziness....I walked the first 5 minutes, .37 miles on a 1.0 incline, and then took off running (minus the incline) finishing the mile at 15 minutes and 20 seconds!! My new record!! :) and this coming from someone who walked the mile in high school at 25 minutes total! ha!! Thank you mr. treadmill. And oh the emergency key definately works, in the midst of me wiping the sweat dripping from my forehead and everywhere else at that point, I must have pulled the key and I suddenly stopped. I was pissed since my time and calories burned and all that jazz was gone, but you know me and my weird, perhaps even secretive obsession with numbers, I was able to remember the time and distance and add it to the end of my second time started. So, I kept pushing myself, and being pissed at the emergency button helped a little too, so why the hell not do 1 more mile, walking the whole time however, on a .5 incline at a pretty steady pace...oh yeah!! finished that in 18 minutes and 30 seconds! Not too shabby, I'd say.

I couldn't be happier with myself...I think I may have been smiling a little at one point. who does that? hahaha. And to top the morning off, well it started with seeing the trainer guy Steve, who I did my three free training sessions with about 9-11 weeks ago, he saw me for the first time since then, and asked how I was doing and if I've been coming in, so I got to brag about that and how I am pretty much averaging 5 times a week including the water aerobics, sometimes more if I do double time, and he said it looks like you're losing a little weight, good for you! Yes, GOOD FOR ME!!!

two more days until my fun filled much deserved three day weekend!! taking a personal day monday and going to enjoy every second of it, no matter what the weather!

Happy Thursday.

ps. this blog is temporarily turning into a journal or what have you, so I apologize if it's not as interesting, but it's motivating to me, to see my progress in writing. and I am a writer.