good ol' days

This weekend has been something like mind changing, but to the ordinary eye it may have just been some regular old weekend. To me...It wasn't! It started Thursday when my therapist was pleasantly surprised I have still been attending aa meetings. Not only attending, but this weekend you could say I included more of the aa meetings into my daily life, or maybe it was time that it just kind of happened that way, either way it was a great weekend. 

Friday night was dinner and bowling with Miss' cousin and her boyfriend. Good laughs, an easy going fun friday night, but the best part the night, besides of course laughing and being with my fiancé and some of her extended family, was that no one drank any alcohol. We all had a great time talking at dinner and laughing, then bowling for two competitive hours thanks to groupon, and a quick card game at their house. It seems such a simple concept but really I can not remember a time hanging out and laughing at dinner and bowling without alcohol among great company!! On the way home, I couldn't help but stare at my fiancé with a smile on my face. I enjoyed myself!! I am fun without drinking!!! A topic that was discussed thursday at therapy. The biggest struggle I have had with no alcohol in my life. The fearful thoughts that I was just no fun without drinking, and like my therapist said, "that's sad Lianne, that you think you're no fun… it's not about the alcohol, it's your personality and who you are, you are a fun loving person."

After work Saturday, Miss and I took a drive, an unplanned drive, sightseeing the surrounding towns, and potential places we could afford to live someday. Life is fun with her, life is how it should be with her by my side, in the driver seat, taking me for a ride of my life. This is supposed to feel like this!! Buying snacks, holding hands, talking about the scenery…"we could totally live here some day!" And someday we will live somewhere in the most perfect house for us, holding our babies. Sugar highs, random drives, and driving ranges in Palmer, Ma.

Just when I thought the weekend couldn't get any better…. Sunday after church, with no plans to do lots of nothing, turned out to be the breakfast out, and a little shopping for my bride to be best friend was exactly what I needed. However, it didn't stop there. We ended up napping on the couches of my parent's house with Miss saying "are we pulling a Cosky?" haha, yes yes we are. When in rome do as the romans, so when at my parents do as my parents…nap on the couch. :) Only to be woken up by my brother's arrival home from coaching and reffing, asking us what we were going to eat already! The three of us had a very enjoyable dinner with laughs and lots of conversation with and without our waiter, but mostly with (haha), at a local pizza place. "I don't get out much," he kept saying, but with smiles and laughter across his face, no shame, anger or sadness. And that made it all worth it even though our bill was outrageous (and we didn't even have alcohol!!!) but it was all worth it!

It didn't stop there, even though it probably should have since he needed to sleep before his overnight shift. We went back to the house and hung out in the sitting room with a little youtube music videos from back in the day. A little home karaoke if you will. Just like the good ol' days in our play room upstairs in the house we grew up in. Just like those days. I can't put into words the feelings I have from last night. I will cherish the photos we took, so I can remember it. But this feeling, this feeling I hope is the beginning of these new good ol' days we are making for years ahead.