twelve promises

Last night.... Tuesday night and where else would we be at 6:30? I love going to meetings! Free therapy! Each week just seems to get better too so that's a plus! We went to eat before the meeting and instead of getting back on the bike, I just walked around the corner. So like every Tuesday night, the regulars are outside before the start smoking their butts or chitchatting, and a few were puzzled when they saw only miss get off the motorcycle! Haha..."wait you're not the one who needs it, but you're more than welcome to keep coming," he said, As he was looking around for me. Ha! So little by little we talk and chat and laugh before the meeting with others, it's nice!!

Sitting in our usual seats...he comes over to me and hands me the twelve promises he wants me to read (as someone is picked every week to read) at the end of the meeting, the guy I love hearing speak..well one of the guys I love hearing  speak who is chairing the meeting. Of course I'll read them. I'm blushing and sweating and smiling away at Miss sitting beside me!!! :-) 

The topic last night was fellowship, and to be honest not sure of the exact dictionary definition but it doesn't matter. It's about people uniting together for good causes, it's about people not judging one another and trying to help each other for the better, it's about support and trust and friendships! The people within these halls.

I spoke again! I spoke in the last ten minutes or so. I raised my hand to give my two sense for the second time!  And again I don't remember word for word but it felt awesome!!! I spoke about the past three months being in these meetings...and being sober the last six months, it hasn't been easy especially in the beginning but since these meetings and the no judgements I have been slowly feeling that much better! I spoke with more ease and confidence, only getting choked up once this time!  Haa. Someone said it before at a meeting, that people within these halls are the normal ones. And how true is that. Every day struggles and life hopes and dreams and problems and heartaches. I continued to say...how great would it be if everyone came to these meetings. I've been in counseling for years and this is just different! It's awesome and I don't have a 20 dollar copay! Even better! But just appreciated the people in the halls and the welcoming you get every single time. I have never been ashamed of going to therapy or afraid to say it and I'm not afraid to say I go to aa meetings because I do tell people that so yeah that's about all that was. It felt good! 

At the end of the meeting, people were gathered around outside and we stopped to talk to a guy who was just up in Maine for vacation. So naturally, Miss had to stop and chat but I'm glad she did because no sooner did the chairperson tonight come out and find me. He said "Lianne  I'm glad you're still here because I wanted to tell you that if you don't see that you've come a long way in the three months you've been here then we sure have seen it!!" It felt awesome and my eyes instantly watered. I love what he has to say every time he shares so coming from him was a greater compliment. He said one suggestion though, get rid of the word only. It's not only three months or only six months! There is no such word! 

One day at a time!  :-)