This past weekend was just a really, relaxing, fun, low-key weekend and it felt great!! The first weekend in our home married, enjoying each other and just being in our home! We own a home and we are married!!! It's still so surreal sometimes!! A year can bring such wonderful things you weren't even looking for, which makes them a zillion times better!!!!! Good things do happen to good people, you just can't go looking for it all the time, or it will drive you nuts! Love just happens, Life happens and my life is AMAZING!!
It's cold, snowy, rainy, and colder than it has to be since electric heat is ridiculously priced, we are winging it with our little space heaters until our gas heater arrives. The old Lianne would be so negative or worrisome about every little thing, but I am so loving this country life! We even played some cribbage this weekend with the patriots cribbage board I bought and gave to her on our wedding day! Best out of three, she won, but I did win the first game, beginners luck, but I did have a big 17 move in one of my turns!! Oh yeah. haha. It's the little things like this weekend that make life worth it. It's playing cribbage, going to church (being put on the spot by your pastor announcing to people gathering for coffee hour that we have newlyweds in the house, it was sweet), going shopping, coming home and eating dinner at home, packing up your lunch for work the next day, taking vitamins...etc. Life is so good.
It's also about accomplishing some really big personal goals. Being sober for 365+ days! A week ago tomorrow, I received my first year coin/chip!!! A huge accomplishment, I never thought about doing, ever. It is something I needed to do and I did. I am doing it every day, choosing to make the best choices for me, despite the social pressures in the world to drink! You change your playmates and playgrounds, and you start hanging around the people who share similar interests. The people with crazier drinking stories than you, but who are some of the most normal people you have ever met. People you look forward to being around, people who are knowledgable about home improvement tasks, people who genuinely care about your best interests and wanting to help you improve your life, etc. Miss drove me to work last week on coin day, and she kept a secret from me, but it was awesome. The two of us went to the meeting, and saw everyone after having not been there for a couple weeks because of our honeymoon. They welcomed us back with open arms of course. Smiles and happiness, and surprises when my brother walked in the room!! My brother, my parents, and a cake that said "Congratulations Lianne" in purple icing, buttercream frosting and rainbow colored circles around the top of the marble cake. I was so surprised to see him there, and even more surprised that Miss knew and didn't tell me! I got two shout outs during the meeting about celebrating Lianne's one year, and how it was a special night! The feeling is indescribable, and even more so when the man who I asked to give me my chip, got up and spoke about me. To be honest, I didn't know what he would say, but he nailed it, bringing us both to be a little choked up. He didn't know when and how we became more than meeting peers, but friends, and even friends on the book, but it just happened and he said he was honored to be a part of my journey and see how far I have come. "she's a newlywed, a homeowner... and she got her smile back" I sure did! I was blotting my tears in the corner of my eyes, smiling so big, everyone clapping and I was walking up there to receive my one year chip that I certainly did earn! I gave him a great big hug, and blew out my 1 candle on the cake, and then my turn to talk. No matter how comfortable I feel in that room, it's still a little intimidating with all eyes on you! "Hi my name is Lianne, I'm an alcoholic...I want to thank everyone in this room for their support, I'm not sure how I got here, well yes I do know how I got here, I changed my playmates and playgrounds like people in here suggested. I'll never forget the first day I came to this meeting, my first AA meeting, it was April Fools Day. (Maybe it's a reminder of all the foolish stuff I did when I was drinking) and the first few times I was just Hi my name is Lianne, but then hey why not, my stories weren't as crazy as some of you in here, but if you always compare yourself to others, then nothing is ever going to be bad for yourself, because there is always something worse out there, or always someone who has it worse than you, but it's not about that.. it's about knowing your own rock bottom, knowing your own worst, not anyone else's. It wasn't easy.. I think everyone should come to an AA meeting, because you crazy people are the most normal people I know! This is the best free therapy I have and will ever get. Thank you..." Something along those lines is what I shared, received my hugs, and then cut some cake!! Not that I like to see my parents choked up, but it was nice to see that they were really proud of me. And as I told Miss on the way to the meeting, it was like I was more excited for this meeting than a dance recital! But then when I saw my brother, I was like this really is better than a dance recital and being the center of attention on stage, because my brother(s) never went to any of my dance recitals, and here he was, one of them anyways!
And for my wife better known as my goysband, Missy, my life, my best friend, my soul mate, my forever... I will continue to say it as long as I live... You are my reason! You saved me from myself! I am going to love you all the days of my life.
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