Missy Monday's

I fall in love with you over and over every time I look at you, hear your voice, touch you and hold you. I truly do not know where I would be without you here with me. Life makes sense with you, more than I could have ever imagined. 

I stopped looking for someone like you years ago, realizing that maybe I just would be by myself or settle for someone less than I truly deserved. Because really, I was never so sure of what I was deserving of. You form habits, bad habits, ways of thinking, people's actions may just effect the way you think about yourself and your worth. The more you think these things, you tend to believe them and no matter how many people who love you, tell you the opposite, you focus on the negative. This makes sense in my head and I am trying my hardest to write it into words. All these people, these relationships you formed with people I thought I loved, took a toll on my heart, broke my heart a little more each time, over years and years. As you get older, years go by, your attending your friends' weddings, baby showers and so forth. All the while, hoping for your day, your turn. 

You are my turn. December 20th this year is my day, our day! I gave up looking for you because I didn't know you existed but even more so, I didn't believe I deserved you. There are a lot of things I don't like about my past, or maybe would have done differently, but not if that meant you and I wouldn't have met when we did and how we did. I am so in love with you, our story, our love for one another. I am learning a lot about myself, as well as rebuilding my self-esteem, self-worth and most importantly my self-love. I just want to spend every possible minute with you for the rest of my life. 

You have given me more love, patience, acceptance, and understanding than I ever ever have had or could imagine receiving. Yes it has been just months thus far, but when you know, you know. When it feels so right in your heart, you can't stop it. No one can stop it, this crazy love, this huge amount of love, it's unbreakable, unstoppable. :) 

I LOVE YOU BEBS!!!!!

I can't imagine my life without you, what I would be missing if I hadn't joined match four months ago today.