Missy Monday's (or thursday morning)

This edition on Missy Monday's...or maybe at this point, I should just call it Weekly Edition of My Love for and with Missy... but anyways. It's all good.

She is just amazing. I can't say enough good things about her, about our relationship these past few short months. I am so in love with her, and not that fake butterfly feeling in my stomach and head in the clouds, hanging out in a make believe world. The real... in love feeling, real life, knowing things are not perfect, nor do we live in a perfect world. This I am very much aware of. She has made me feel the most safe, loved, respected, cared for person I have ever felt. I love the way she loves me, the way she looks at me, the way she worries about me. 

This past week has been great. We had fights, little tiffs, laughter and tears, and some more laughter. We went to a party at my parents for the football game, where she met most all of my mom's friends who have been in my life, my whole life, and will hopefully be at our wedding. Things started out crappy that day for the both of us, due to our womanly monthly responsibilities, and her ankle was really sore. There are just some things that will take both of us time to adjust, get used to, remember so we don't have to ask all the questions and whatnot all the time. We will get there, I know we will.

 She brings instant tears to my eyes, but in a good way. She is truly allowing me to break down all the walls I have had and allowing me to flood my emotions out rather than keep them blocked inside me. I feel so safe and loved. She watched this video of me singing and dancing in the living room (fully clothed people...get your minds out of the gutter!! ha) right after our little tiff. She is sooo not like everyone else from my past. And she reminds me every single day.

We have done more talking this past week than I have done in my past relationships probably in the whole two and half years. Communication is so important to both of us, and we definitely have that. She makes me want to be a better person. I haven't had a drink all year!! I look forward to sunday mornings with her at church, look forward to coming home to her from work, look forward to her meeting my friends and family and loved ones, and vice versa. We have done lots and lots of wedding plans, agreed on most everything, laugh and embrace each other more and more each day. The planning to our future has already begun, and is happening daily. 

You, you are my reason. My reason I didn't give up on love, didn't give in to the thought about maybe living alone for the rest of my life., the reason why I kept getting out of bed and facing this crazy cruel world. You are my reason. You saved myself from my own misery. 

You are my prince(ss) charming!

I love you so very much Bebs!